It appears that the term "Empty Nester" brings up a mirad of emotions, especially this time of year where there is a slew of parents fresh from getting their children ripped out of there arms and other parents revisiting the time last year, or the year before...
Emotionally I want to run around in circles and say, "Noooooo, this can't be happening!!!" This action would be followed by much wailing and gnashing of teeth (Isn't gnashing a great word? I'm so excited I got to use it.) Of course, this only happens in my mind, 'cus I'm a big girl now.
The logic in me prevails. Yes, it is a good thing that my kids are leaving. And I'll be honest with you, I don't want a thirty year old sitting on the couch playing video games and raiding my fridge, and cleaning up after one man (although he would deny that I have to do anything) is quite enough. Thank you very much. So I stick that in my head.
Then I remember how hard we worked to get our kids out the door--into great colleges with great prospects for the future. God forbid that didn't work out!
I remind myself that I did have a life before kids--and I repeat that over and over in my head, desperately hoping that there will come a day I believe it.
I also remind myself of the grey hairs my children have contributed to my life.
I've planned date night with my husband--every Friday. We're taking turns and have a $20 budget for the evening. That'll keep us on our toes.
I've got lots of projects planned--besides the house and moving in the next few weeks, I'm working on a couple of MSS, working on the fitness aspect of my life, promising myself I'll study more, and I'm even thinking about starting a blog!
I've resolved to laugh alot, spend time with friends, and have fun--enough said.
And sometimes, late at night I think about the pieces of my heart that I miss...and I cry.
Sigh, I guess it is an EN word.
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